I stood in my basement, staring at piles of laundry. I was feeling overwhelmed. I had a million things to do and not much time to do them. And Advent was about to begin. Now I love Advent (it's my favorite time of year) but it's very busy.
Somehow my mind wandered on to Our Blessed Mother. How did she feel during Advent? My snarky self pictured an overwhelmed pregnant lady who just found out she had to travel to Bethlehem:
"Are you freaking kidding me?! You can tell Caesar Augustus to come to US if he wants our information. I just got back from helping Elizabeth and now I'm supposed to hop on a donkey when I'm nine months pregnant and travel to Bethlehem?!"
Hmmm...that doesn't sound like Our Lady. That sounds like me.
I know Our Lady lived a life without sin. Which means she didn't complain to God and flip out on St. Joseph. She discerned God's will, and she went with it. Not begrudgingly, but lovingly. Because she loved God and she wanted to do His will.
As I reflected on this, I realized I've been doing a lot of complaining lately. Now my life is busy with three small children, but I must admit I've got it really good. And even if things weren't going so well (and hard times are sure to come) wallowing in despair is not the proper response. Not if I want to do God's will so I can live with him forever in Heaven.
This Advent I'm going to complain less and listen to God more. I will spend more time in prayer. I've decided to devote ten extra minutes each day to just get away from the grind and adore God. To prepare myself for the birth of His son, Christ Jesus.
I'm also going to make it a priority to make a holy hour before the Blessed Sacrament each week. This will take planning, but it's totally doable.
I made a good confession today, something I haven't done in far too long, to prepare for Advent. I'm hopeful that God's grace will help me to seek Jesus.
Happy Advent! And Happy New-Mass-Translation! We are truly blessed.